This past week of Choral Camp has been rough. It's been hard being thrown into a schedule and camp that most everyone has been a part of since they were campers. There are a lot of assumptions made regarding the knowledge of the counselors with the schedule and the way things are done. I basically am starting from scratch and didn't know much at all. That kind of thing generally freaks me out. So I spent the first few days of camp feeling terrible and freaking out.

It finally caught up with my Wednesday night and I cried for awhile. I think I'm also feeling really worn out and tired from REACH and the fact that I haven't taken any time to just exist since I've been home. There's always been something I needed to accomplish.

I think this next week will be better. I have a better grasp on the schedule and I have a few things that I'm really good at that I can grasp onto and throw myself into. I know more people now, which will help.

I think one thing that's made me really frustrated about this week is that I've been really unsure of myself. When I'm unsure of myself, I don't talk and I withdraw. So, then I am the quiet, shy girl. I'm not deep down, but my insecurities cripple me. I don't know what to do about it. I guess people will just have to get to know me to see that I'm not that shy and quiet person they all assume.

So, that's a little update. I was planning on staying in OH next weekend, but I decided I'm exhausted and burnt out enough I need to just go home and get some rest before heading out west for conference and vacation.