I've been trying to figure out life recently. I've been trying to figure out how to not only make it through life intact, but how to do so as a faithful follower of Christ. I think I've been making it more complicated than it needs to be. There is definitely something to be said for intellect and using it to follow Christ and deepen our faith, but I have found that my intellect has been getting in the way of my faith as of late. I find myself thinking that things are improbable, so I don't believe that they can happen. In the mean time, God is telling me to just trust Him and to have faith in Him. I don't because I want to rely on my logic and my intellect. It's a dangerous thing for me to rely on my intellect. I need faith like a child.

So, for me, it is important to have a simple faith. This still involves spiritual disciplines, but I am realizing that I need to simplify many things about my spiritual life. I get bogged down by how complicated everything is in my spiritual life as well as lose focus on the simple child-like faith that characterizes a follower of Christ.

I would be the doubting Thomas if I lived during the time of Christ. I would be the one that would scoff at the reports and say that people were delusional. I would not believe until I felt the nail holes and stared deep into my Savior's eyes. Perhaps I would even be a Pharisee, adding requirement after requirement to my faith. I would project a holier than thou attitude to the religious people around me and scoff at their simple faith.

Father, please make my life match up with what the life of a follower of You should look like. Please help me to have a simple faith and at the same time use the mind that You have given me. Holy Spirit, come and change me.